Oh, Toni. I am sorry this undeserving man made you sad. It's natural, I think, to mourn any passing. Hopes and dreams unrealized. We want to be chosen for how wonderful we are. But when we glimpse the darkness that is the price for being chosen and are strong enough to deny it, there still seems to be a price to pay. I'm sorry you had to pay it. But from your wonderful 'tales of the husband,' I'd say good was just waiting around the corner. I wish you continuing joy.