I was told all my early life that I didn't have enough to do whenever I chose to sit and think, read, research or write. Particularly if I was writing. That's another way of saying 'you have too much time on your hands'. I experienced these words as dismissive, ugly and enslaving. Enslaving because they felt that my time was their own to direct into action and then judge whether that action was worthy or not. I don't use the word lightly. I am highly aware of how charged it is. When you are treated as a commodity without choice, no matter what enterprise, it's perhaps appropriate.